As a child I always felt different. I never felt anyone understood certain parts of who I was. Those things would remain hidden and ignored for many years. I had a very strong sense of who people were. I can remember meeting people, even complete strangers and getting an immediate good or bad feeling. The… Continue reading Facing my fears one deep breath at a time
When you become a mother everyone is quick to tell you all the perfect sitcom versions of what motherhood will be like. The love you'll feel, the joy they bring to your life. They tend to tell you some sugar coated version of what motherhood actually feels like. Now my kids do bring me joy… Continue reading The intense love of Motherhood
I feel like we are programmed to live in the future. I don’t mean some sci-fi time travel to some future life. I’m talking about instead on being mindful and present our focus is often on the future. What about tomorrow? What do I have to get done next week? What if this thing could… Continue reading Chasing down the perfection of tomorrow
Women are led to believe they must do it all and well. That if you drop the ball in any area you're a failure. You are expected to juggle all of your hats with a smile on your face. Heaven forbid you get emotional about something then you're labeled a crazy bitch. Hide all of… Continue reading Make your own rules
I wrote the following words on June 15, 2015. I was suffering from a broken heart and insomnia. My best friend had just cut her family vacation short, a vacation we both knew would be her last one ever. She was in Cleveland clinic awaiting some relief. She was losing her fight with breast cancer.… Continue reading Panic with a side of insomnia and broken heart.
The simple and ordinary parts of life are the most beautiful. Sure we can have big grand moments, and they produce a fun memory or joy in the moment. But I think my fondest memories have the simplest backdrops and have even less frills. I get a huge laugh to this day when I think… Continue reading Beauty is in the ordinary
Ok this is a hard one to hear. It is for me at least. This is because I sit and think about so many wasted years of unhappiness. Overall my life has been pretty damn good, but I haven’t always seen it that way. I’ve spent many days miserable because of things either out of… Continue reading Hard truths about happiness